Letter From Your Editor: Returning to Work as a Mom is a Revelation
Leave a comment to share how you've managed to juggle your career with parenthood – and personal hygiene.
Hello, readers!
Today marks my return to work after more than four months and a lot has changed – for you and me – during that time.
You last heard from me in February, when I was hospitalized and put on bed rest during my first pregnancy after a routine ultrasound revealed I was in pre-term labor more than two months before our baby's due date. Fortunately, all of the TLC I received from my doting husband, sister and myriad friends and family paid off and our healthy baby boy arrived only two weeks early in April. I've got to believe all of your caring thoughts and prayers helped, too, so thank you!
Life with an infant is much more grueling than I anticipated. You truly don't understand until you experience the endless nights, little one's tiny tears and your own lack of personal hygiene. The exhaustion is the most intense part:
- One day during the first month, I had the pleasure of being peed on not once, but twice, during a newborn photo shoot at a friend's house. When we got home, I had just enough time to take a nap or shower before my husband left for work. Despite not having showered for a couple days, I chose the nap. Gross, right? As I laid down to sleep, my husband walked by and asked: "Why is there a quarter stuck to your leg?" That's how dirty I was. I was so sticky loose change stuck to me. I joked that I should just roll around and see if we could get rich!
- Another day during the first month, I noticed little spots of liquid on the floor throughout our house. I followed them to their source and discovered that my poor husband, who had a glass of tonic water in his hand, was falling asleep standing up. Each time he did so, his hand would relax and a little bit of water would spill out of the cup. We laughed so hard we cried about that one!
Then there was the colicky phase, when the baby cried what seemed like most of the time and needed to be held 24/7 because he couldn't sleep on his back without choking. Luckily, that has passed and we've cleared some milestones – first bottle of breast milk, first vaccination – that have revealed life as a parent is a tough balancing act, fraught with decisions that really have no right or wrong answer. Uncertainty is de rigueur.
Returning to work is certainly one of those milestones. Before baby, I imagined it would be an easy transition and that he would fit nicely into the day's activities. Oh, the delusions of a first-time parent! It is only now I realize that life revolves around baby, not the other way around.
I am not a superwoman, nor do I circulate in international circles of power, but I certainly can relate to this recent piece by Anne-Marie Slaughter in The Atlantic. She wrote of coming to grips with her yearning to devote more time to her family, "I was increasingly aware that the feminist beliefs on which I had built my entire career were shifting under my feet."
Does that sound familiar? I'd love to hear from you, readers: How have you made your transition back to work work? Have you been able to achieve a work-life balance? What issues continue to challenge you? If you decided to stay home, how did you do it? Mr. Moms, I want to hear from you, too!
As I type, I am bouncing our little son in his chair with my foot and he is cooing up at me with a big smile on his face. Moments like that make all the sleepless nights and tough decisions worth it. So, when you see us around town – he'll be my new assistant – feel free to offer advice on how to make this journey called parenthood work!
I salute you parents!
Julie McKeeman
9:41 am on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
My daughter is almost 15 months old and we still have those sleepless nights. When she was 5 months old, I went back to work part time. Although a financial struggle, we knew it was the right thing to do for our family. Those mornings with her were priceless. Next school year I go back to work full time. And even though I know it is the right decision financially for our family, I am going to miss our time together in the mornings. For the summer, I am going to soak up every single second with her, even those sleepless nights. (Last night, we slept on the floor next to her crib due to a late afternoon nap that turned into an early bedtime....which had her ready to go at 2am!)
Leslie Ellis
9:46 am on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Oh, boy! Sounds like fun! LOL! But, I completely understand what you're saying. Even the trying moments are priceless. Good luck this fall - I'm sure it will be a tough transition!
Alan Stamm
10:56 am on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Worlds overlap: Life as a journalist, whether at a metro daily or a local news site, also is "fraught with decisions that really have no right or wrong answer."
So now you've achieved a form of work-life balance where "uncertainty is de rigueur" in every aspect! (This isn't helpful, is it?)
Leslie Ellis
11:12 am on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Ain't that the truth, Alan?!
Timothy Rath
3:03 pm on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
I'm glad to see you back Leslie.
Marilyn Stephan
3:57 pm on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Congratulations! When your little boy goes to kindergarten, you will ask yourself,"Where di the time go?
My best wishes to the three of you!
Marilyn Stephan
Leslie Ellis
4:30 pm on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Thanks, Tim! Thanks, Mayor Stephan! I am trying to savor every moment!
Rod Arroyo
5:13 pm on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Welcome back Leslie! So happy to hear you and baby are both healthy and happy.
Being a father and the primary caregiver to two boys, I have learned that you can't do it all. You have to set priorities at home and at work...and then many things in your life change and you have to re-evaluate your decisions based on what is right for that day, while at the same time keeping a long-range view of these daily decisions. Then you repeat this over and over for at least the next 22 years (I'm still counting). It is exhausting and inspiring at the same time. Enjoy the journey.
Leslie Ellis
2:01 pm on Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Hi, Rod! I read once that each time your heart breaks, it stretches too, enabling it to love more greatly in the future (or something to that effect). That reminds me of the exhaustion/inspiration of constantly re-evaluating your decisions. ... Good work on being the primary caregiver to two boys!! I always shake my head when I hear people say "there are no good men out there." I have the good fortune to know quite a few – including yourself! :)
Nicole Krawcke
6:42 pm on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Yay! Welcome back to Patchland! We're all glad to have you back!
Art Aisner
6:55 pm on Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Yep. Sounds about right! Great column, Leslie, and welcome back.
Craig Covey
11:32 am on Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Handling work, child-raising, managing a home...is a huge amount of work and I am always in awe of the ability of folks to juggle so much. Our lives are so busy, but it sounds like you have the right balance and the right attititude...Best of luck...
Leslie Ellis
2:02 pm on Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Thanks, Nicole, Art and Craig!
Kristin Bull
2:27 pm on Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Your stories of falling asleep while walking and the battle between nap vs. shower made me smile, Leslie. As a mom, I've done the stay-at-home thing and the work-away thing and the work-from-home thing, too. I can honestly say all of them have their pros and cons, their ups and downs. I don't give advice without hesitation, but what I do know for sure is this: at the end of the day, no matter what you don't get done, what you leave uncleaned or uneaten or unfinished or unsaid, no one will love you more than your little one with his super sweet smile. And that's what matters most!
Edward Cardenas
5:40 pm on Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Welcome back Leslie and welcome to the world of parenthood! Your column brought back great memories of the joys and challenges of being a new parent.
Nicquel Terry
10:17 am on Thursday, June 28, 2012
I loved this column, Leslie! We missed you dearly and I'm glad you're back. I can't wait to meet Baby Ellis. :-)